WaLauWei

With the potical tsunami crashed through the 2008 election, a glimpse of hope & light seems to penetrate the heavy clouded dark sky of despair among the people. Somehow, all of us voted for the same noble cause this round.

Some may ask, what has caused this sudden change of votes? Is it a mere "Enough Is Enough!!!" frustration burning in our heart? Or, is it a political cycle which strikes every 10 years, some has claim? Or, is it just a mere illusion which didn't change much apart from the count of votes. Having this "illusion" of change which take place, we tend to place hope that things will get better. All the wrong doings, to be put in order ultimately.

The question is, is that all, is that "Enough"?

Having an union life with my spouse for more than 2 years, I was reengineered in terms of my thinking, hobby, lifestyle so on and so forth. Well, marriage life certainly is no joke or easy path comparing to religious life or single life. Use to be, I thought it is already enough in a sense of my life. Suddenly, the missing puzzle of third person starts to come into the picture. So, it is not enough eventually?

*sigh*

to be continue ...

hi folks

It's been more than 2 years since i last blogged. Much has happened without realizing how fast time has speed by.

Just a quite post ... see ya.

WaLauWei

Work life has been frustrating for the past few months. The more proper word is upset.

It's like an endless journey where you keep on struggling to catch a breath and hoping to sight a glimpse of light of hope. Hence, things happen and you never expect it to happen. The worse part is suprises. Just imagine that the moment you thought you've accomplished something worth to be proud of, you're told that that's not what you're expected to do or you need to do more. More ... more .. more ... how much is enough?

Yes, how much is enough? It's never enough.

In the midst of business and tiredness, I can't help but feel very helpless and upset with my shortcoming and inperfectness of environment that I'm working in. Yet, I've survived one after another of setback and disappointment.

I tell myself, I'm going to hang on. I acknowledge my weaknesses, I'm willing to change. I want to deliver a good product. But what we're unaware of, good things need times. A good wine need long years to have the quality and originality to achieve.

*sigh*

It's been more than 2 months since I last blogged.

Unnoticingly, I've survivied for another 2 months doing the same work which irritate me over and over. Yet, the comfort and benefit given kept on staying me back.

Going to stop for now ... ciao.

It's 2:21pm now and everyone has come back from lunch. As usual, prefered to be alone and do my own stuffs, I stayed back lunchless and enjoyed a moment of quietness in the office ... pondering / meditating on things happening for the past few months ...

Sad to say, life is still a routine with slight highlight on and off. Getting very tired and frustrated over the same (LOOP) wake up, brushing, washing, breakfast, working, coming back, dinner (I escaped lunch.), resting, TV, games (END LOOP). As I ponder and observe how meaningful and fun life can become to peoples arround me and the world, everything comes to one basic element, choice. C.H.O.I.C.E. damm it ... it's something we're force to undertake and pay for the consequent if a wrong choice is made. To pick the correct one costs you time, effort & lots and lots of your brain juice. On top of that, you've to take care and worry about tons of work related and family related stuffs.

Come to a time, I'm pretty bored with my complaints that I get my mouth shut!! Whatever orders come in my way, to prevent further pressure and complains I'll just pick it up and do it. Damm ... life sucks!!

According to www.dictionary.com:

frus·tra·tion
n.

1. 1. The act of frustrating or an instance of being frustrated.
   2. The state of being frustrated.
2. Something that serves to frustrate

I'm in deep frustration ...

1. Frustrated over the unending work and interruption from users.
2. Frustrated over heavy and pilling work load which seems to replenish everyday.
3. Frustrated over tiny red tape required to fulfill an employee's responsibilities - reports, updates, meetings ...

& anger now.

1. Angry over the lost of concentration and job satisfaction in delivering an assignment in expected time frame.
2. Angry over rapid changes and unending modification.
3. Angry over inconsiderate colleagues who demands and abuse services which I'm providing.

Very helpless that ...

1. I still can't fulfill my dreams and starting doing something for my own.
2. I don't have the gut to jump into the world of business owner and enterpreneur.
3. I don't see any clear hope and guarantee over a good career that promise a good future.

and impatient that times tick so slowly that it's 3 long hours till off-office hour.

As work load is increasing over the rapid changes and dynamic business process & requirement, all are required to follow the orders and support the latest orders from the top management. Without valueing the capability of the implementor, all of us are treated as enabler without questions asked.

"Can your team support this ... requirement? How long do you need to deliver it? BTW, top management already approve this and die also you need to deliver it by next month"

Me: "Wa Lau Weiii ... !! (Day-Light-Murdering)".

That's the common scene which plays over and over in workplace. Being developer who don't have much veto power, we've to follow most of the time. Ultimately, I don't have much comment / complain on that as I belief I'm employed & paid to do those. But the funny thing is, management tends to talk about empowerment, "company asset" thingy. That's really confusing at times.

On one hand, you're reminded of how important your are. How you can change the company's future bla bla bla ...
On second hand, you're told to be a team player and work towards a common goal.
On third hand, you're told that you're just doing your job.

At the end of the day, it can be a sad and frustrating.

It's coming to 4 months since I take over this S.T.U.P.I.D. system from my colleague and it's been nearly total 5 S.T.U.P.I.D. months I work in this company. Walauwei ... I've been working world for more than 5 years liao ... including 2 monkey jobs I had after my graduation.

Like youngsters who leave their home and work in the big city, having a good carrier and eventually my own business have been an ideal ever since I stepped into my first job. Of course, working as employee saves you a lot of trouble and inconvenient over how to sustain your life and guarantee your future. In my workplace, bearing the good name of "Assets of the company", we gone through a series of "brain washing".

Course like, "Company Values", "Culture of Work" have been unendingly specifying on how to work more while not paid more. Feel sucks!!! Work can be very meaningless at times. Very often, we're called to love our work, shit man!!! total lies!!! It's not like I'm withdrawing comfortable USD22,000 a month. These programs only serve one purpose, educated employees to work MORE!!!! work LONGER!!!! yet ... pay the SAME!!!! waaaalauwei ... it's difficult for me to accept that.

Coming to annual review, it's the time we fight for our contribution. Unfailingly, supervisors tend to question all ratings you rated for you. Well, that's quite fair. He/She is just doing her job. It's their duty to tell the employees that

"No, you're paying to do that. By accomplishing that, you're just fulfilling your duty."

WAALAUWEII ... It's so unfair to us. Our efforts are degraded!!! Then why work so hard? Why stayed back after office hour? It's totally nonense working late. The results don't match the effort anyway. Okay, you can say you work to earn it. Then what about those high management who give orders and earned the success we hard-worked? On top of high pay and fat benefits given to them, some of them even had a good raise. Fxxk man!!! Things will get worse if a project is screwed / delayed. Who get the blame? Yes, the project manager shares the equal burden, but we're the one who to blame eventually. Walauweiii ...

So, the summary is, be as practical as possible in your work!!!

FORGET about "LOVE your work thingy!!!"
BE PRACTICAL!!!!! That's how they're rating us in the end. So, why be so naive and stupid and work like dogs for their benefits???

The purpose of this HowTo to teach all GoGo, DiDi, CheChe, MuiMui , LengJai, LengLui, ASok, ASum a guarantee success 4 steps on how to say a decent: "Waaaa Lau Weeeeeiiiii".

1) Take a slow deep breath at your nose ...
2) Start feeling annoyed of certain incident ...
3) Browse back how the incident first approach you ...
4) Clear your troat and say: "(High)Waaa (Med)Lau Weiiii(Drag) !!!"

Note:
Bold text from steps 1 to 4 can be exchanged with your terms like ...

Mike version ...
1) Take a brutal smack at your face ...
2) Start feeling exited towards certain person ...
3) Browse back how the person first irritate you ...
4) Clear your troat and say: "(Low)Waaa (Low)Lau Weiiii(Single Tone) !!!"
Lesson to learn: Say "WaLauWei" instead of biting people's ear.

This is just a guide only. Therefore, practice make perfect and feel free to enhance or streamline the 4 steps. Have fun ...

First of all, welcome all to my humble WaLauWei.blogger.com.

End of posting.

Pak Cik at warung with his laptop: "Tiuu !!! How can the virgin post so short one??"
WaLauWei: "WaLauWeiii ... warming up only marr".